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Surrendering to the Goddess
It's been quite a while since I've posted here and I have a thought to start back a little bit in order to bring everyone up to the same place in time and space. I turned a prophetic 50 years old at the beginning of April this year and since then I have had no little happenings. First there was a wonderful party in April to celebrate my birthday and also to celebrate the positive with friends good health and good times.

This quickly was followed by my first experience of Beltane the way it should be, clothing optional, adult only, very hedonistic. There were some awesome workshops including "Putting more energy into spanking" and "sensual massage" both of which were excellently done and I learned a great deal. I had my first taste (and liked it) of a real dungeon set-up and couldn't get enough but found too that there is a price to pay for playing. My partner and I spent some intense quality time together and came away with a new sense of partnership and bonding that I hadn't imagined. I participated in a very intense ritual saturday that was truly mind expanding. I met some really wonderful people and made some new friends and maybe future lovers. I am really looking forward to going to Fires of Venus in september, I can hardly contain myself.

This was followed by the death of a friend's 18 year old son just a few short weeks before he was to graduate high school. This was truly tragic and it really hit me hard, I spent the better portion of a week crying about it. We had a beautiful gathering in his memory and shared stories together. We laughed and we cried and we sang and praised his young life. It was amazing and everyone felt better afterward.

Then to top everything off and deal me a total curve ball, I was asked to resign my position of 19 years at the hospital. We are not a good fit anymore, um ok then.... So I resign and am waiting my first unemployment payment and now I'm faced with a total change at the age of 50. What shall I do? Well I've only been out of work for 2 wks but I've decided that working in a hospital is not going to work for me. I don't feel that I can do that again. So now what you ask? I've decided to go back to school and have already applied to grad school at PSU. And as you might guess, Murphy's law is in effect and it's too late to apply for fall 2010 but I was informed that I could apply for spring of 2011 which I promptly did. My references are in, I've gotten comfirmation via e-mail and now I just have to wait. The next thing will be materializing money but I am intending on Surrendering to the Goddess and trusting that it will work out somehow.

So that is the pg-13 long and short of the story. My life has really proven to be intense, changing, spiritually charged and emotionally incredible over the past two short months. I'm looking forward to what comes next.

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There's lots of stuff coming up in the next month, but after that things clear out, schedule-wise. Anything fun going on in July/August? If not, we should make something happen...

Sweetie, we were chatting with Art about solstice ritual and holding it on the 26th of June if you are interested. Also of course the fireworks on the 4th of July, we walk up behind my house and have a good view of the stadium if you are interested in coming over. Also the arts festival is the 8-11 of July. I am out of town to Brushwood for summerfest on the 18th of July to the 25th. Keep in touch! I would love to have you over anytime! I'm always looking for sane people in this insane world. I will let you know if we start up our potlucks again, should sometime but my life has been chaotic and only just starting to settle down. Drink deep, may you never thirst.

Re: summer approaching

The potlucks sound great and definitely my speed. J and I will be out of town the weekend of 26th June (Baitcon). I might just be heading to Brushwood myself for summerfest but I need to hear back from those guys as to whether I can pay a sliding scale since I'd only be able to be there Mon-Thurs and couldn't afford the entire week's reg fee.

Do let me know about the potlucks if they start up again!

Re: summer approaching

Please let me know if you are going to summerfest! It would be awesome to hang out. I will definitely let you know about potlucks.

I'm sorry we haven't connected, but glad you had a good time at Beltane. :-)

You might want to check out your state's Career Center (part of the unemployment office). If you're out of work and need an upgrade in skills, there are government grants that will help you pay for it.

It's called the Workforce Investment Act and it is money that the federal government has put aside to train people who are in exactly in your situation.

I don't know if they'll pay for college, but give it your best shot; you'll have everything to gain.

Personally, out of a similar chaos period, a lot of good came out. May good things come out of yours.

Good luck & Be Well,

Thank you for the advice, John had said you worked for the unemployment office. I will look into it and see if it will help at all. I hope you have a great summer! I hope you have a good time at FSG and maybe we will meet sometime in the future! Drink Deep, may you never thirst!

I do hope we do get to meet in person. When you get to the end of all this chaos, may it be so much better than you went in.

Feel free to contact me with more questions about the WIA thing.

May the light never go out in your heart,

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