It's been quite a while since I've posted here and I have a thought to start back a little bit in order to bring everyone up to the same place in time and space. I turned a prophetic 50 years old at the beginning of April this year and since then I have had no little happenings. First there was a wonderful party in April to celebrate my birthday and also to celebrate the positive with friends good health and good times.
This quickly was followed by my first experience of Beltane the way it should be, clothing optional, adult only, very hedonistic. There were some awesome workshops including "Putting more energy into spanking" and "sensual massage" both of which were excellently done and I learned a great deal. I had my first taste (and liked it) of a real dungeon set-up and couldn't get enough but found too that there is a price to pay for playing. My partner and I spent some intense quality time together and came away with a new sense of partnership and bonding that I hadn't imagined. I participated in a very intense ritual saturday that was truly mind expanding. I met some really wonderful people and made some new friends and maybe future lovers. I am really looking forward to going to Fires of Venus in september, I can hardly contain myself.
This was followed by the death of a friend's 18 year old son just a few short weeks before he was to graduate high school. This was truly tragic and it really hit me hard, I spent the better portion of a week crying about it. We had a beautiful gathering in his memory and shared stories together. We laughed and we cried and we sang and praised his young life. It was amazing and everyone felt better afterward.
Then to top everything off and deal me a total curve ball, I was asked to resign my position of 19 years at the hospital. We are not a good fit anymore, um ok then.... So I resign and am waiting my first unemployment payment and now I'm faced with a total change at the age of 50. What shall I do? Well I've only been out of work for 2 wks but I've decided that working in a hospital is not going to work for me. I don't feel that I can do that again. So now what you ask? I've decided to go back to school and have already applied to grad school at PSU. And as you might guess, Murphy's law is in effect and it's too late to apply for fall 2010 but I was informed that I could apply for spring of 2011 which I promptly did. My references are in, I've gotten comfirmation via e-mail and now I just have to wait. The next thing will be materializing money but I am intending on Surrendering to the Goddess and trusting that it will work out somehow.
So that is the pg-13 long and short of the story. My life has really proven to be intense, changing, spiritually charged and emotionally incredible over the past two short months. I'm looking forward to what comes next.
- Surrendering to the Goddess